It's scary the things that can change in a matter of moments, hours, days, months, years. How time flies by so quickly that sometimes if you blink you can miss something important.
The last few months for me have been a turning point in my life. I did lots of self exploration, self-pity, searching deep inside to find the answers that I was seeking and although I didn't find all the answers I was looking for, I did find myself and that in itself was a feat.
Life here really hasn't changed much but the way I'm looking at it has.
My marriage has become stronger. I finally had the heart to heart talk with my husband that I never was able to really have before. I told him exactly how things were making me feel and how I felt. It was hard for him to hear, but we vowed to work out our problems and issues and stay together without all the crap we've had going on before. Things are better and that's saying a lot considering I thought it was a situation that would never be able to be saved. In my heart, I always felt it was worth trying to save a marriage of 16 years.
I still work at the same job, even though the people I work with/for have changed several times over, I am still here......15 years and counting. It has it's ups and downs but then again so do all jobs.
My son's health is something that has been weighing on me heavily. Finally having the Epilepsy under control (at least at this point in time) has helped me try not to worry so much, but I will never not worry about this. It breaks my heart to know that he will have to live with this the rest of his life and that there is nothing I can do to fix it. All I can do it try my best to make his life happy and as normal as possible. Also, I decided to become involved more in causes for Epilepsy. My family and I and even some of my co-workers will be involved in something called "Fall Stroll for Epilepsy" in September. And even though I may not need the services currently that the monies will help provide, I do not know what the future will hold so I want to be proactive and participate now while I'm able. My youngest son will be starting 1st grade next week. He's not really looking forward to it, but I know he will enjoy it once it starts.
My oldest son has spent a large part of his summer working for/with his dad. Even though he's only 13 years old, he's got more smarts about plumbing and carpentry than I will ever have in my lifetime. He also has gotten into golf. And he's pretty good at it. He was involved in a tournament yesterday (about 10 kids involved) and came in 1st place. I'm glad to see him enjoying it. He's even looking forward to school starting next week. He will be an 8th grade, the big wig on campus, and he said it will be lots of fun! I have never ever seen him excited about school before so that's a good change too. Also, baseball will be starting soon and he loves that too, so he's doing great right now.
It's hard to believe the summer is over and that school is starting again and that the year has gone by so quickly.
I'm still catching up on diaries. Some of the things I have missed have made me cry, and others have made me smile.....
8:55 a.m. - August 19, 2005
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