shortst101's Diaryland Diary

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jumbled up mess.....

(2nd Entry Today)

I'm tired.
My body aches for sleep.
For rest.
It won't get it.
At least not for another month or two.
I can't rest even when I am laying down.
Sleep won't come.
Too much on my mind.
Too much in my heart.
Sometimes, it's all way too much.

We move in less than a month. The kids have 16 days of school left (after today). The new house isn't ready. The old house isn't packed. I'm not ready. I don't guess the fact that I'm not ready really matters, it's gonna happen no matter what. So why am I stressing so much about it all?

Why is it that time slips up so quickly when you don't want it too!?

Youngest son is sick again. He woke up with the croup yesterday morning, barking like a seal. Husband took him to the doctor while I took my mother in law to the doctor. I ended up staying home yesterday after the doctor's appointments taking care of both of them.

My boss leaves the company next week. Another CEO bites the dust. He's pretty much already left now. He pops in and out for a couple hours everyday but he's got that "i could care less" attitude going on. Can't say I blame him at all. I've been kinda stuck in between him and one of my other bosses lately. They were having a pissing contest to see who was the best one for the company. The CEO lost the contest.

At least I still have a job for now. Who knows what will happen tomorrow or the next day. One day at a time.

I'm depressed today.
My heart is sad.
I just want to run away.
Hide for a little while.

Anyone know a good hiding place? Anyone want to come and hide with me?

12:12 p.m. - May 18, 2006

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