I'm not quite sure what is wrong with me lately. My stress level is at an all time high these days. I am having frequent headaches and I've been noticing that my memory doesn't seem to be to great at times. I guess it could be the headaches causing that.
Basically I feel like I'm losing my mind and what little bit of sanity I actually have left.
I'm worrying about my parents alot. My dad took early retirement from US@ir when he was 55 years old. My mom had to quit work to take care of my grandmother when she was diagnosed with Alzheimers. After my dad retired, he took odd jobs off and on to help suppliment their income. And for the last couple of years he's been working at the local high school as security and driving a school bus. The issue now is that my dad just turned 62 and is now drawing social security. However, since he took early retirement at age 55, his retirement check from US@ir has been reduced by a significant amount since he is now 62. Enough of an amount that they can't pay the bills and are going to have to sell their home and downsize. Now the thing that bothers me is this, my sister has basically mooched off of them most of her adult life. She was married for a short time and moved back when she separated and has been living there ever since. BUT, she doesn't feel she needs to pay them anything. And not only that, my parents buy her son things, like clothing, etc. that she should be buying. My parents have helped her out fincinally many times and she just continues to take and take and never gives back. I don't even know if she realizes the seriousness of the situation our parents are in now. My sister is getting married in December (thank God) and will be moving out, but I still am not sure that her and her new husband will make it because both of them are very immature and have never had to live out on their own and rely on themselves only. My dad told me last weekend that even my brother, who had to stay with them for a couple months while he was going through separation, gave them more money (not that they ask for it) in the two months he was there, than my sister has ever. Sometimes I want to just smack her.
Here my parents have worked hard all their lives, and for what. I wish my husband and I weren't struggling financially ourselves because I'd love to be able to help them if I could. My parents really do want to move closer to us and I'm hoping that somehow that can be something that happens in the near future. If the house we lived in was ours, hell I'd have them move in with us. ~sighs~
Ok, i'm done with the bitching for the moment. I do have some good things I want to write about, but will put that in a different entry shortly.
8:50 a.m. - September 19, 2006
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